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Blondie L. Clayton

Why I Share My Abuse Story

Whatever is done in the dark, will soon come to light, so live your life in the spotlight and you will never be humiliated by your past deeds.

I didn't set out to bring shame and reproach on my family. Instead I just wanted to live with parents who loved me and to grow up to be like other children, enjoy being a kid and having fun, but sexual acts by family members and others changed the course of my life.

I lived in fear of anyone finding out about my past. In school I was afraid to dress out because surely my peers would notice something different. Haunted by a fear that was only in my head kept me chained to my secret past.

By the time I was 12 I had been the victim of incest, raped and molested. It looked as though my life was doomed but for this ever present voice that seemed to be guiding my path, directing me to re-focus on what I could control, like getting an education.

I went through school in a fog. When I have the opportunity to spend time with classmates today, they ask me if I remember this or that and I can’t. I’ve learned not to get down about it. It is what it is.

The breakdown began about 32 years later after my first granddaughter was born, an occasion I looked forward to with great pride, having a granddaughter who would be like my daughter.

That is when the flash backs and the voices began...

It seemed every time I was in the presence of this little girl this would happen.

This was the trigger that started the journey to seeking the meaning of all this. One day I got my answer:
It was true what I had tried not to accept, that my family had violated my body, both male and female. Instead of crying, I felt relieved. A joy and peace unspeakable filled my soul. I was not crazy. I was not mental. There was a root to all of this.

For the first time in over 30 years I felt free. Out of that experience came the writing of my first book, which you can read about on this site.

I didn’t write the book to get back at my family. I heard a voice at 10 tell me I was going to write a book about my life. I didn’t think much else about it. After that day of release, I knew I had to tell others, and so the book manifested after over 30 years.

I wrote the book and spent the next five years in a battle with my family. Many turned away from me, didn’t want to have anything to do with me, called me a liar. They wanted this secret kept. I have endured the backlash from not only the abusers but their children’s children.

It hurt but I am free. Little did I know there would be others freed in the midst of the explosion that rocked the family tree. All was not loss, some wanted to be forgiven for such foolish acts done in their teenage years, others were wrestling with certain temptations, couldn’t figure where it was coming from and were able to release.

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The Rise Above My Father's Abandonment
By Blondie L. Clayton

Cost: $ 12.95 (includes s/h)

What happens when a little girl looks up one day and her father is no longer there? The man she once adored is no longer a part of her life. How does his absence impact her life? Are her choices in life carrying hidden father hunger influences? Is she victimized? Is her lack of value showing in her relationships?

Blondie Clayton had no clue as to why she acted the way she did, made the choices she made. All she knew that there was something on the inside that was driving her and at times she felt she was losing her mind. She longed for her father, yet there was something else haunting her which she was afraid to talk about until…

Discover what secrets Blondie finally shared with the still small voice which led to exposing lies and healing her heart in The Rise Above My Father’s Abandonment. Who was this mysterious acquaintance present in Blondie’s life from childhood? Find out how she rose above her father’s abandonment.

The Rise Above My Father's Abandonment

Cost: $ 12.95 (includes s/h)

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